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everysecond...Wait so I'm supposed to do what with this?
I guess I leave a message.
Hey, this is Rileyable Riley. Leave a message.
So does that work?
[ooc: Leave a message for her!]
I guess I leave a message.
Hey, this is Rileyable Riley. Leave a message.
So does that work?
[ooc: Leave a message for her!]
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Date: 2014-11-19 06:42 pm (UTC)[Ellie intends to say something, honest, but then Riley starts touching her hair. The tension in her shoulders slips away, and she sighs.]
You know those hallucinations we had?
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Date: 2014-11-20 11:02 am (UTC)[She keeps petting her, offering what comfort she can. It's probably not much but at least it's something.]
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Date: 2014-11-20 06:34 pm (UTC)[She trials off again, shuts her eyes. Fights to keep her voice steady.]
I didn't know it was him.
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Date: 2014-11-21 08:54 am (UTC)She closes her eyes and holds her closer.]
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Date: 2014-11-21 09:17 am (UTC)I guess it wasn't my fault when you get down to it.
[But Riley, more than anybody, knows better. She knows what it's like to have someone's blood on your hands. Someone you love.]
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Date: 2014-11-21 12:19 pm (UTC)[Seriously. She has so much blood on her hands. Innocent blood. Family blood.]
I know what that's like.
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Date: 2014-11-21 06:41 pm (UTC)[Ellie finds Riley's hand. She's never forgotten that story, and only now does she have some idea of what she's been through. What Henry went through, in the moments before...
She feels guilty, for having this second chance. Ellie always gets the second chances. To live after being bitten. Getting Riley and Joel back. Joel, Riley, Henry, Sam, Tess, Sarah... they'd never get that chance.
Survivor's guilt is an insidious thing.]
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Date: 2014-11-22 04:59 am (UTC)She closes her eyes.]
Have you talked to him since then?
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:27 am (UTC)[Riley's heartbeat has been all over the place, but never any one beat for very long. Steady, regardless. Ellie counts them again, always in groups of two. Two heartbeats, twenty, two hundred...]
Like it didn't even matter.
[It still makes no sense to her. That love could be unconditional, that it could endure so much.]
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:31 am (UTC)[At least he treats Ellie well. He's a dick to her but at least Riley knows her girl is always in good hands with him.]
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:37 am (UTC)He tried to get me to go. So I wouldn't have to watch.
I mean, even like that, and all he could think about was protecting me.
[Her voice cracks, and she half-laughs.]
He's just like you, you know. Like that.
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:39 am (UTC)[Which Ellie needs and deserves. She's been through so much shit that she needs to just have the good in the world now. It's all that she wants for her. Ellie seriously deserves it...seriously.]
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:43 am (UTC)Remember the first time I hugged you?
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Date: 2014-11-22 07:44 am (UTC)Yeah. I remember.
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Date: 2014-11-22 08:03 am (UTC)Fuck, I don't think I ever had a chance.
[It makes her laugh again, thinking of all they've done to keep each other safe. Down to some downright stupid, boneheaded shit -- like shooting at the leader of the Fireflies, and running into the basement of a burning school.
She thinks of taking off on Callus, of luring the group in the Rockies away from Joel.]
Guess I'm the same way.
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Date: 2014-11-22 09:34 am (UTC)[Seriously. It actually means the world to her. That Ellie would do those things for her...because...]
But it kinda makes us really stupid.
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Date: 2014-11-22 04:57 pm (UTC)[Laughing aches a lot, but she pushes it out anyway. She has to. Sometimes it's the only way to release that awful pressure.
Two beats. Twenty.
Riley's chest is warm, and she wants to stay here forever, but she can practically feel the ache under the words. Only now that they are older does she really understand how Riley feels. She lifts her head, shifts up.
They're so rarely serious.]
I'm really... really happy you're here.
[She whispers it. Then, carefully, because she's so unsure of the small gestures, she reaches out to tuck a piece of hair back from Riley's face. It's a small thing she learned from her.]
And not just for me.
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Date: 2014-11-24 11:59 am (UTC)[She looks up at her, not really sure what else to say. Selfishness is what she knows best from the world. It's what she knows how to respond to.
So she reacts the only way she can figure out.
With a joke.]
That's kind of cheesy.
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Date: 2014-11-25 08:35 am (UTC)Yeah, a little.
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Date: 2014-11-25 02:19 pm (UTC)...It sounded pretty good though.
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Date: 2014-11-26 06:47 am (UTC)Made ya blush.
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Date: 2014-11-26 06:51 am (UTC)Oh shut up.
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Date: 2014-11-26 07:36 am (UTC)You never should've... things should have been different.
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